03 March 2009
I hate effing languages
The gmail is going back to English from Íslenska straight away. I have decided, or realised, finally, that my constant search for knowledge and my constant need (whether a legitimate need or not) to study languages, are in fact attempts to flee and hide from myself and my feelings about things that I have experienced in the far and recent past, both things that I got myself into, as well as things that were inflicted upon me, or which I could not aviod experiencing. I guess I haven't wanted to confront how I actually feel about certain things which in some cases have for a long time been closed issues. I think it also comes down to not feeling satisfied with myself, and that I am in some way inadequate, haven't lived up to someone's expectations, even if only my own. I have been running for years, and I am exhausted.
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Then find what really satisfies you. Face whatever you have been hiding from and seek out what really brings you joy with a more "sober" mind, if one can name an untroubled mind thus.
It is my first comment here. Actually I found this blog only but a week ago. Before that I did not believe there was anyone as fascinated in languages as I am. It is rather heart-rekindling to know that there are people who value languages as I do.
To enjoy things fully one needs to be rested, and I believe that is just what you need.
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